"Wow." Ysh'vanna places a hand on her hip when the coveted girl of the hour walks out of the armoury. "You look great."
Truthfully, Lili feels and looks stupid. Ysh'vanna's collection of various and questionable toys—yes, Lili can't stress that enough, toys—actually had its uses in the form of a pair of synthetic cat ears and a strap-on tail that fastened around her waist—her waist, not anywhere else. She'd borrowed one of Avett's pants too, because she found that her tail had to go through somewhere, and her tail-holeless skirts and jeans just weren't cutting it. The opening is snug—tight enough so that her undergarments won't show through even with vigorous movement, but loose enough for the faux-fur on her new appendage to breathe.
Her ears twitch when her eyes fall on Avett, who's giving her one of the worst shit-eating grins he's ever had to offer. The ears are linked up to her brain or something—in full honesty, she'd merely skimmed over the manual and slid them onto her head without a second thought. Her tail isn't as technologically advanced, as evidenced by the yank Avett so thoughtfully gives Lili upon seeing her. It stays limp in his hand.
Pleadingly and desperately, Lili looks to Auren for help. This is a bad idea, this is a terrible idea, and surely, surely the resident forty-year-old will recognise that with his elderly wisdom.
He gives her a thumbs up. "I do not see the issue. She appears to be Kattish to me."
Ysh'vanna gives a whoop and hooks an arm around Lili's neck, bringing the latter into an uncomfortable hunch. "See? I told you it'd work, I totally called it!"
In record time, they're shoved off the ship and left to their own accord. And Avett's accord, apparently, is to mercilessly tease Lili about her new appearance all the way into the main hub.
By the time he's brought up her lame tail for the tenth time, Lili's already thought of fifty different things she could be busying herself with right now, and they've arrived in the thick of New Therius. There's obviously not a single Human in sight, but the observation scares her anyway. The main square is huge but dull—the ceiling is a lame and flat grey, and the buildings that mantle the edges of the area are actually piles upon piles of shipping containers, no doubt repurposed from Melbourne's import piers. The only thing that really sets New Therius apart from the other sanctuaries is the total lack of security; even in the Afflatus there had been the occasional officer, tucked away between the pedestrians.
Here, there's nothing. No safety net. But that lack of security goes both ways—if she so desires, she could punch a racist and leave the sanctuary with nary a mark on her record.
Avett breaks his sulk with a long winded sigh. "I know you're thinking about it," he says, "but people here hold grudges like a Kattish male in rut. I wouldn't punch anyone if you could help it."
Lili feels her ears droop. In the distance, there are two off-lander men in their forties standing near an open hanger. A ship with a boot large enough to fit at least two commercial rentables is reversing into the room; one of the men taps his pen into his clipboard in response at this, his grin growing wider by the second. For a lack of a better term, they all seem so Human—and yet they would balk at the mere idea of a Human walking amongst them. Lili turns away.
She catches it not a moment later, like a poorly wired lightbulb that won't turn on. "Rut?" she echoes.
Avett tilts his chin up and smirks.
He's messing with her again, she just knows it. Lili shakes her head. "There's no way."
"You have no idea." He's moving around her in circles now, making her back straighten involuntarily. "We males just get so, so pent up for a week; our eyes go all big, our tails get sensitive to the point of sensory overload, and we gotta take these pills every so often or else we'll start getting all hot and bo—"
Aiming low and striking swiftly, Lili goes for his shin right as he's passing her for the second time. It lands true; Avett bounces away from her, hugging his leg in pain and throwing out profanities like a kid hurling toys during his first temper tantrum.
"You're dressed up like me," he manages to spit out between swears, "so at least learn the culture!"
He's just having her on. Some pedestrians stop to watch, but most pass by with their curiosities sated for now. They can smell a good fight from a mile away, and this is not one of them.
By the time Lili has made this observation, Avett’s already recovered from his well-deserved love-tap. They continue to wander down the barren halls of the sanctuary. Avett's limp is slight enough to slow them down. Before Lil can bring it up with him, he starts to talk.
"I'm gonna be real, New Therius hasn't been under construction in ages; they’d have removed the eyesores—containers by now if they were renovating. That said, haven't been here in ages either. The only ramps I know of would be on the top floor." He folds his arms.
“Did he mention if the ramps headed up or down?”
His focus snags on a faraway cart. The way the crowd parts to give way reminds Lili of pepper in a dish of water and detergent.
"What is that?" she asks.
Avett doesn't say anything at first, only looking away. Then, with a cold quietness to his voice, he says, "A hearse."
Her attention whips back to the cart. It's a shuddering, tin-and-metal thing—its wheels rattle like toll bells against the planked flooring, and if she squints she can see the near lifeless look on the driver's face. It's the look of a man unable to save the dead from their untimely fates, only to deliver them to their graves. Lili shudders when she realises that it's far more likely that he's on his way to the furnace, judging from the lack of headstones outside.
The cart clatters by. Avett is deathly still, and Lili doesn't dare look up, lest she catch the glassy eyes of a corpse.
She chews on the inside of her cheeks. If her ears fall off, if it somehow gets out that she's not actually a Kattish, she might just end up on that hearse later today.
Lili sneaks a glance sideways towards Avett. His skin is alabaster-pale, but his features are a picture of pure apathy. "Sometimes, fights don't… end neatly. And fights break out a dime a dozen here."
Lili scraps all thoughts of punching a politically-charged off-lander and instead sets her mind on their objective.
"Any maintenance areas?" she asks, desperate to drive the conversation elsewhere. "We could start looking in the industrial places."
"Bold words, considering the entirety of New Therius looks about as industrial as a sanctuary'll ever get, and that's including the Hive." He stretches. His eyes are fixed elsewhere—on a food stand, Lili recognises. A daring, neon sign of what appears to be a stylised bowl of noodles stands boldly against the backdrop of dull shipping containers.
He turns back to Lili. "Ysh’vanna told us to enjoy ourselves."
"Please, no," she begs. "I've had enough of spicy. My disguise might fall apart."
One of Avett's ears twitch out of playful mirth. "Some Therius-born Kattishes can be complete bitches too. I wouldn't worry about it."
She's reminded of that time he'd simply taken her bowl and finished it in front of her without shame. His metabolism must work overtime if he's able to consume that much without feeling bloated after.
"Avett…" Her ears are drooping. This is terrible. The moment she's out of New Therius, she's ripping these right off.
Avett returns her pleading with a nasally parrot. "Lilith…"
His ears wiggle earnestly. A deluge of violent thoughts involving her hands and this absolute bastard’s neck assaults her mind. She chooses to act on none of them.
"Fine." She grits her teeth. "Go have your stinking noodles."
"Aw, you're too kind."
Not surprisingly, the storekeeper is also a Kattish. What immediately takes Lili's attention is her appearance. Most of her left arm has been inked with swirls of layered rivulets; each layer is more intense in both form and colour than the last. If it's proof that she's allied with a specific group, she's not afraid to show it—she's wearing a spaghetti-string tank top, revealing the better half of her shoulders and back.
She whirls, and when she does, her platinum-blonde shock of hair fans out before hitting her neck again. "Heya, boys. What can I getcha?"
Avett jumps onto a stool; Lili follows suit. "I'll get an extra spicy and a mild for the lady," he says.
The storekeeper makes a face. Lili thinks she's about to start ragging on her for not being able to handle anything spicier than garlic bread when she says, "You know, us 'ladies' can handle a lot more than what you'd expect, considering all the shit you pricks throw at us."
Avett blinks. Her retort has left him confused and helplessly open, which is enough time for the storekeeper to turn her attention to Lili with all of her sauntering grace.
"As a word of warning," she says with her ladle swinging haphazardly in the air, "if you can't handle more than mild, don't let this ass pressure you into anything higher. It will suck. My noodles aren’t gonna mollycoddle you, and if you're not prepared for it, it'll burn coming out—one way or the other."
Her diatribe goes through Lili's head and comes out through her ears. The Kattish woman is staring at her, almost right through her like a needle through a pincushion. Two things then dawn on her. First and foremost: Lili must be way too tall to pass for a female Kattish, even with her long hair, and her boyish frame certainly isn't doing her any favours in this woman's eyes. Secondly, and more importantly: Lili's eyes are round, full, and most definitely not slitted. There's just the briefest notion of curiosity about the woman as she fixes her slitted eyes on Lili's own.
Fear grips her heart as she remembers the wailing of iron against iron against wood. Lili scrambles to find anything, any excuse that'll save her sorry ass from an untimely trip to the incinerator.
Carefully, she says, in her coolest voice: "I'm rutting."
Avett coughs and swiftly administers a kick to her shins. She doesn't budge.
The storekeeper's ears flutter slightly. She's obviously titillated by her response, so titillated that Lili thinks she might have some kind of undiagnosed humiliation kink. "You don't see too many men brave enough to go talking about their reproductive cycle these days," she says as she ladles soup into a bowl of golden noodles. "Don't blame 'em. Apparently Kattish men aren't just horny all day, what a shocker."
Lili is learning more and more about the Kattish with each passing day. The woman serves her bowl first, then Avett's. A thin layer of bright-red oil floats on the surface of his broth, while hers is just plain old brown.
She laps at the soup from her spoon with a tentative tongue. Though the broth is scalding hot, she's actually able to taste the subtle nuances of a pork bone base and the sweet, bulky aftertaste of onion and soy. This is what soup tastes like without the added jazz of Kattish spices, she reminds herself.
"So." The woman leans against the counter on her forearms. "Never seen you guys around before. What's your deal?"
"Mercenaries," Avett answers smoothly between huffs, which is impressive considering that he’s trying to cool his broth to eating temperature at the same time.
"Ooh, both of you?" A catlike grin spreads across her face. God knows what she's thinking about the two of them. "Stars, it probably sucks having to go through a rut while travelling abroad. Normally I just take the week off. I've already got the monthly womanly wiles to worry about—why bother with one more?"
It occurs to Lili that she hasn't the faintest clue of how anything works in a Kattish body. She flashes a sidelong glance to Avett, but he's either deeply engrossed in her mounting discomfort or he can't hear her, because he's still blowing on the soup like his life depends on it. From the way his ears are swivelling in place… likely the former.
"Can I grab a name, boys?" she asks. "I'm Hilli'na Tei'il. And you are?"
There's that dread again. Lili has no idea how naming conventions work, let alone how the nuances of Kattish naming cultures work. Hilli'na's name sounds a lot more like Ysh'vanna's name than those of Avett and Auren's, but she's from the same culture as Avett, so what's the deal and how the hell is she going to get out of this mess?
Avett nods. "So you're from the motherland. I'm Jaret Ironsturm." He reaches across to give Lili's shoulder an affirming squeeze. "My cousin, Lilic Ironsturm. He's a little awkward—don't mind him."
Lili tries hard not to squint at Avett, like he can't just add a hard c to the end of her name and expect it to sound masculine. And why bother with changing his own name?
Hilli'na eats it right up anyway. "Ironsturm boys, hm. Heard you guys've got beef all over the family line because of a certain someone."
Lili gives Avett a curious glance. His hand stays on her shoulder, but something's tensed in the way he's holding her.
"Is she here today?" he asks, his tone distant.
"Fuck if I know. The Lion Lady comes and goes as she pleases." She shrugs, then testingly, she adds, "Heard her son's one hell of a mess because of her."
Avett’s grip on Lili's shoulder tightens, and for a second she thinks he might pop out her joint. His voice drops to a low, pin-prick precise growl. "That's none of your business."
The two stare each other down for a bit. Then, with a slow nod, Hilli'na apologises and turns back to the sink, content on scrubbing away at the oil on her growing pile of dishes.
Something tells Lili that she might just be sitting next to someone's hell-of-a-mess son right now.
Avett leans back and spears his chopsticks into the bowl. He pierces through a slab of marinated pork and finishes his meal so quickly Lili wonders if he’ll be ok later. Feeling pressured, she does the same; the broth’s still hot, and it stings while going down, but it won’t compare to the sensation of being watched by both the shopkeeper and Avett if she doesn’t hurry and finish it off. Soon enough, she’s also met with the fulfillment of an empty bowl.
Hilli'na tidies up while Avett pays with his mercenary ID. They’re just about to stand up and leave when the woman clacks down a glass of tap water onto the table in front of Lili.
“...What?” Lili regards the glass of water with stilted curiosity.
Hilli'na folds her arms. “For your pill.”
Lili’s breath catches in her throat. Her pills. For what? Oh, fuck—her ‘rut.’ Her mind feels like a chalkboard that’s just been scrubbed clean; her words stay hooked against her teeth and don’t come out. All she can do is stare down the shopkeeper, her dilated pupils meeting a slitted stare.
Something bumps into her thigh. When she dares to break eye contact with Hilli'na, she finds a packet of half-opened pills jabbing into the fabric of her pants. A muscle flashes in Avett’s jaw.
Without any further questioning, she takes the packet and pops one out. It’s small—hardly larger than the pad of her pinky, but slightly thicker than her nail. She could bite this clean in half and it’d snap apart in her mouth.
Lili laughs. “Sorry, I normally take my pills dry. You know, just swallow ‘em.”
She gulps down the pill after her mouthful of water anyway.
Hilli'na settles back, clearly satisfied by Lili’s discomfort. God bless the female Kattish, Lili thinks, as the two of them thank her for the service and leave the canteen. Once the path widens and they’re back in the comfort of the square, Avett trembles and curls over himself, arms clutching at his sides like they might split.
“What’d you give me?” Lili asks, slowly.
Her companion snorts—then lets out a wild bark of laughter, one that reminds Lili of the fit she’d thrown back in the mall after his not-so-charming tale of how he’d managed to get away with rubbing one out in the detention room. He’s still laughing when he takes her to a park bench, and by then he’s even started tearing up at the edges of his eyes.
Irritation settles in her jaw in the form of a clench. “What did you give me?”
Avett just holds out his hand. It takes a bit for Lili to realise that he’s asking for his pills back.
Dread settles in her stomach. “Avett, they’re laxatives, aren’t they—they’re laxatives, and you’ve just fucked me over—”
“No, no, fuck, they’re not.” He sniffs and takes the pills from her. “I would never. Why would I have laxatives on me at all times?”
“Then what are they?”
“Don’t get mad at me,” he says. With his hand in his other pocket, he tosses over a rectangular object; Lili catches it in both hands. When she goes to examine it, she finds that it’s another glossy packet of pills.
Avett twirls his finger in the air. “Turn it over, come on.”
Lili does so with oily anticipation. It’s probably the off-realm equivalent of Viagra or some other male virility-boosting medicine, seeing as how it came from Avett’s own pocket. When she sees the first word on the other side, bolded and clearly marked in strokes of sickly yellow, she immediately smacks it back down. A blush creeps up her cheeks.
She reads the instructions on the back to really make sure it is what she thinks it is.
It is.
“Truthfully,” Avett starts, his mouth still curved with a lazy smile, “I didn’t think she’d actually believe your lie at first. People’ll talk about their cycles, sure, but no one’s actually bold enough to admit they’re on one at the moment. Especially not people like you.”
“Thanks.” Lili slouches back in the seat and hands back the packet, not caring to meet his eyes.
Avett goes on, “You know they can smell you, right? You know the only reason why she didn’t call out your bullshit was because she scented it from—”
“How come your pupils look normal? You said earlier that they dilate.” she retorts. “As in… slitted.”
He rolls his eyes. “Earlier I was spouting the same shit Kattish fetishisers spout when they try to explain a heat or rut. Not everyone’s eyes expand. Mine don’t. Some Kattish don’t even have to take the pill, they just walk around, and their hormone levels don’t spike for a second. Come on, Lilith—we’re not all carbon copies of each other, you know.”
"So everything you said earlier—"
Avett actually shifts uncomfortably at this. "All an exaggeration. It's not that bad. We just have to take pills sometimes and it's fine. Kind of like periods."
Fuck this conversation. “Do I have to throw it up or anything?” she asks.
He shrugs. “Probably not. You might get a little dizzy after, decreased libido levels—the worst part’s the acne, supposedly, but look at me, I’m clear as day. You’ll be fine.”
Lili idly brushes a thumb over her cheek. She’s been acne-less for at least ten years now. This is going to really fucking suck, but the acne’s just the tip of the iceberg in comparison to the deluge of new information that’s just been thrusted upon her.
“Ok, welp.” Avett stands up, his cheeks still flushed from amusement. “That’s our daily allotment of fun for today. Auren says he might’ve found a possible entry point into the lower depths of New Therius, and that he wants to meet up soon to go look at it.”
“Fun gone,” Lili replies dejectedly. “Thank god.”
“Yeah, I know you love fun. Try not to cry too hard.”
Lili tries to think of anything, anything at all, but nothing witty comes to mind. Avett’s already started off, and if she hesitates for even a second longer he’ll fade into the crowd.
—
Auren is sitting at a bench against the wall. He's flicking through some documents on his GlassLink; Lili can tell because he hasn't set his phone to opaque mode, so everything's filtering right through the screen. Maybe he doesn't have anything to hide. Lili knows Avett does.
Upon seeing them, Auren flicks off his screen and rises, his arms folded in front of him. "I take it you two have gotten nothing done?"
Uh oh. Lili flashes a glance at Avett for him to pitch in with something, anything, but he's just grinning up a storm to himself. She has to remind herself that he gets off on being at odds with Auren, and probably Ysh'vanna as well, now that she's giving it some real thought.
"Lilith learned a lot about the Kattish today," Avett mumbles under his breath, just loud enough for Lili to catch. She kicks at a stray pebble at her feet.
"You must remember that I am in my fifties," Auren says with his head held high. "Young by Eldrakian means, but not youthful in the slightest. You will have to speak up if you—"
There are gunshots in the distance. Auren’s impeccable stance slouches a bit when he catches it, like he’s tired of whatever New Therius has to throw at him and that he’d rather be on the ship with Ysh’vanna instead. As the three of them move closer, it’s getting harder to ignore the bitter clang of sword against barrel, nor the rowdy gathering of off-landers as they encircle the action and place bets upon bets.
Auren stops them at the edge of the crowd and clicks his tongue. “Shameless brawling. Our entry point is just beyond this area. Come.”
Lili gulps. She’s not sure if she’s ready to pass through the crowd right now, especially not a crowd that’s more focused on the violence in front of them and the money that’s passing between their hands. It’s debauche, it’s hedonistic—and she doesn’t like that, nor is she used to it. Worst of all, she might actually manage to catch the dregs of action through the tangle of limbs and heads, and that’s not something she’s keen on seeing.
“Keep your hands on your valuables, princess,” is all Avett offers when they approach the—now rapidly expanding—audience. “We spent a fortune to get you tested, and we can't afford to lose your ID in the crowd."
With Auren leading the way, she shoves past a pair of giggling and, once again, concerningly young Kattish girls. They’re holding their phones up to the action; Lili feels compelled to follow their screens, but her will is a leash holding her head back. A very narrow, paper-thin leash, but a leash nonetheless.
Another gunshot. They must be using some kind of altered energy blaster up there, because Lili doesn’t remember Avett’s gear being so obnoxiously loud. The altercation thrums above them, a clear indicator of the sanctuary’s savage lengths and the reason why there's a factory-sized incinerator just outside to the left of the hangar.
The scrape of metal on metal briefly stops Avett in his tracks. He glances up, his eyes searching through the crowd and no doubt catching the blur of competent fighters as they scuffle back and forth on the mosaiced planter boxes. Lili wonders if he's actually enjoying the show.
He's not, she realises. His ears have sagged to his scalp.
"Avett," she hisses, pulling on the back of Auren's cape to stop him in his tracks. "We gotta go."
Auren pauses, then gives the combatants a scan. He's at least a head taller than everyone here, owing to the fact that an Eldrakian would rather be caught dead than to be found in the thick of a New Therian brawl.
A gunshot sounds, and a masculine grunt heralds the end of the fight. Avett holds the sides of his arms protectively, but he's not looking at whoever's just been shot—no, he's paling at the sight of someone else.
Lili yields and steals a glance upwards. There, on the counter, is a surprisingly young Kattish woman. Her hair would be a mousy, pathetic brown on someone else, but on her it catches the sun and alternates between a deep hazel and a wondrous gold—kind of like what Lili thinks spinning wheat into riches would look like. She wears the arms specialist's jumpsuit, but the upper half has been knotted down onto her waist. Her blaster—to even call it a blaster is kind of stretching it—has a long, metallic barrel, similar to a rifle from Earth.
Auren is the first to speak up. As the Kattish woman's challenger limps away with a hand pressed to his side, he turns his attention back to Avett. "Quite the resemblance."
"Shut up, asshole," Avett says. Lili hardly catches the tremble of his voice over the frantic cries and gasps of the surrounding crowd.
It hits Lili like a delayed sucker punch. When she looks back at the woman on the planter-box, she realises that she'd recognise those defiant, copper eyes anywhere.
With a guttural yell, she turns her attention to the audience. She's asking them if anyone else is up for the challenge of besting her in dishonorable combat. Avett keeps his head glued to the floor and pushes on Lili's arm. "Come on. Let's go."
Not surprisingly, not a single member of the audience steps forward. GlassLinks are bumped, monetary bets are exchanged, and then the crowd is dispersing like starving ants finishing off a cookie crumb. At last, it feels like Lili can breathe again.
Until it doesn't. Auren stops in his tracks, and so does she.
Somehow, the woman has managed to get in front of them, and she's got a stiff expression on her face that just screams confrontation. The people move past and around her, keeping their safe distance as if she might start violently lashing out at any moment. Maybe she's done something like that before, who could say? Lord knows what she's gotten away with in the safety of New Therius.
She's got her eyes fixed on the poor soul that's standing behind Lili. Auren moves to block her line of sight, but it's too late because she's already started to stride forward, each of her boots clicking into the wooden panelling with purpose.
The woman stops a short distance away from their single-file train arrangement. "Come on," she says. Her voice is soft, yet calculatingly cold. "Can't a woman see her son?"
Even though Lili can only see Auren's back, she catches the slightest hesitation in the way he normally carries himself. He's—not scared, not really. More like he's wondering if Avett's dignity is worth becoming an unofficially registered menace in New Therius for.
Avett pushes past the two of them. His hand lingers against the small of Lili's back before he lets go.
Auren hisses under his breath. "We do not have the time for this."
The woman doesn't run up to Avett; instead, she stands there, her smile turning callous in a matter of seconds. "Avett Earlstone, how very nice to see you."
"I'm not your son," he spits. The way he's looking at his mother right now reminds Lili of the way he'd looked at her back in the old ship. He looks vulnerable, like the reddening skin underneath a dried scab.
"I named you and taught you how to fire that thing." She jerks her head at his holster. "If I'm not your mother, I don't know what I am."
A spark of ember in her stomach prompts Lili to step forward, but a steady hand on her shoulder keeps her in check. Auren says nothing in response.
"You left dad, Eltia. You lunged at the opportunity to leave Aurores to go aboard as a merc again, because you did not give a shit about any of us." Avett shifts his weight, not breaking eye contact for a second. "You literally sat everyone down and screamed about how we forgot to close the kitchen curtains again then left the next morning. You're not a mother."
Lili clenches her fist.
Eltia merely braces a hand on her hip, her voice smooth like bodily oil on skin. "Avett, I haven't seen you proper in ten years, and this is how you greet me?"
"Fuck you," Avett snarls.
A sigh. Eltia reaches into her jumpsuit and pulls out a standard blaster.
Auren freezes at her side. With a click of the blaster's energy barrel, she raises it to Avett's forehead with all of the casual grace of a natural killer.
Lili must look like she's about to pounce forward, because Auren's digits are digging into her shoulder and he's hissing, "Do not," into her ear.
What a terrible fucking situation. She squeezes her eyes shut as she wills herself into docility, but even as she sinks deeper into that reverie of apathy, she finds that the spark inside of her still incessantly burns—a bright sun amidst a vacuum of void and dust.
Eltia steps forward until the barrel bites right into the skin of his forehead. "A mother wouldn't shoot her son."
Avett trembles slightly. Eltia continues, her voice reminding Lili of the wailing wheels of the hearse, "So call me your mother."
The Gallian caster's already pulled the ribbon from his ponytail, letting his golden-white locks splash around him in a wave. His fingers flex behind his back as he prepares to ward Avett. The tangy smell of the sun wafts from his hair when it's ready.
With both hands outstretched, he sends that impeccable, Gallian power forward.
Avett releases a breath. Eltia, without warning nor prompt, lowers her gun and closes the distance between her and her son.
As she watches Eltia pull Avett into an unnatural embrace, Lili feels a part of her break. She can't help but grind her jaw together in pure, unadulterated anger. She's seen this happen before. She's been right here before. It's sad to see that this moment in time is universal even across alternate realities, but this is the truth: shitty families transcend the boundaries of realms. This is eraless.
When Eltia pulls away from the embrace, Lili takes advantage of Auren's busy state by storming right up to Eltia and—with ether surging through every fibre of her being—striking her cheek with an open palm.
It takes a moment for Eltia to register the pain. Lili takes this moment to just start fucking screaming at her. She doesn't care what the hell's going to come out of her mouth, only that she has to say it, and she has to say it now.
"You'd fucking point a gun at your own son? You'd point a gun to your son's head and ask him to call you your mother over it? You're scum. I don’t care who you are. You're fucking scum."
Her hand grazes the tender mark on her face briefly before she raises her blaster again, this time to Lili's head.
"I haven't got the slightest idea who you are," Eltia says, each word a calculated stab, "but I'm sure that you are well acquainted with who I am, and that I will not hesitate to kill you should I find your existence intolerable."
"Wait, let her go," Avett stutters from behind her.
The pound of adrenaline soars through Lili's veins like an oily drug. She should be scared, should be backing off with her tail between her legs, literally—but her rage is like scaffolding, and it keeps her standing and steady against the turbulent waves of her adversary. Lili feels incredibly lucid, like she's never been so aware of herself before. The settling of the crowd. The tapered whisperings of the curious. The kiss of the barrel, its power at the mercy of the woman standing behind it.
"You're a shit mum," Lili says. "Shoot me. Prove me right."
She hears Auren's ether whirl to life again, but he's not fast enough. Eltia's fingers are already on the trigger, and she's about to fire—
It’s a trickle at first, the first of many droplets down a glass pane. Ether is rushing to her head, and for a moment it feels like she might explode, or pass out from the pressure of it all. Lili recalls the moment she’d broken through Alexei’s half-draconic armor, how liberating it had felt to finally be free and powerful. She’d snapped right through it, like a dog breaking from its leathery leash. Lili grabs onto that feeling and wraps it around her fingers, her wrists, like she’s pulling herself up from a cliff face with nothing but her nails and sheer will.
The bullet is hot. It burns more than it hurts.
Lili stumbles backward. That’s it. That’s all there is to it—it burns more than it hurts. She’s still shaking as she takes two tentative steps back, the gift of adrenaline having faded from her limbs only just now. Eltia looks just about as shocked as her.
A faceted shield wavers into existence in front of her. When she looks back, she sees that Auren has one of his arms outstretched like he’s pulling back an arrow. He’s got something aimed at Eltia’s head too, she realises.
“The next step forward,” Auren breathes, in that dangerously low rolling tone of his, ”will be your last.”
Eltia rolls her eyes. She puts on a huge show of putting away her blaster, spinning her finger around the trigger guard and slotting it in her holster mid-turn. Her hybrid-rifle folds away neatly underneath the knot of her jumpsuit. But when she looks back up, it’s not Avett she’s looking at—no, it’s Lili.
Her copper eyes don’t catch the light when she says, “Next time, I’m shooting you on sight.”
Then she turns, and within seconds, she’s faded into the crowd. Lili feels like she might drop to her knees at any second, but she stands, watching Eltia Earlstone saunter out of existence. The crowds also disappear, their interest sated in turn. Good riddance.
Lili’s heart is still pounding, pounding; a war drum pumping to the beat of the absence of violence in peace. But then she perks right up again. “Well, that was cool. Where are we going, by the wa—”
She stops in her tracks when she catches the eyes of her crewmates.
Auren has always looked cold, but he’s never looked this cold. It’s like he’s taken off his mask only to reveal an adamant skin of iron underneath. Avett, on the other hand, looks like he might just detonate on the spot.
Lili finds herself swallowing down a bubble of air.
The spark’s just about reached the end of the fuse for Avett. “What the fuck were you thinking?” He stomps up to her, his fists quivering at his side.
“Avett.”
He stops, his fist a breadth away from Lili’s face.
Two of Auren’s fingers are pointing forward, and his hair is fanned out again. Both frontliners look back at him, both as equally confused as the other.
With the tall stride of a true Eldrakian, he closes the distance between himself and Lili in two, easy steps. His chin is uptilted, not that he has to do anything to appear taller to her—he’s already got at least a head on both of them. No, it’s a show of dignity. He’s not going to bother with looking down at her; his energy’s better spent elsewhere.
Like socking her in the face.
The blow ripples out from her cheekbone. She goes skidding across the ground—where on Earth had Auren gotten all that strength from? It doesn’t just feel like she’s been punched, it actually feels cold, like her bones have been replaced, joint by joint, with molded icicles. Lili is about to get up when the site of impact flares into a chill. She scrambles to get her fingers over the site of impact, attempting to warm it up with her palm, but it’s no use, it’s like someone’s captured the pure vacuum of space and held it up against her skin, that’s the only way she can describe it. She’s writhing on the floor, and she might, might just be groaning out loud in pain.
Their voices sound fuzzy. Hell, they look fuzzy too, and the frigid burn at her cheekbones isn't helping their visages. Avett’s looking up at Auren, his eyebrows slanted in disapproval. “I think you got carried away,” he’s saying, but Lili is sure he actually sounds mildly satisfied. What an asshole.
She holds a hand against her cheek and pumps hot, raging ether into her veins. It works, thankfully—the heat returns to her bones, and soon she’s seeing the two of them properly again.
Then she realises the shit she’s put herself in. Avett’s biological mother, Eltia Earlstone, wants her dead. But worse: Auren punched her.
What was she thinking?
Sheepishly, she gets up to her feet. Neither of them offer their hands. Avett actually steps back and away from her when she goes to stagger past the two men. The Gallian, however, has other plans. He steps in front of her while he still has the chance.
Lili doesn’t look up at first, but Auren grips her cheeks lightly and forces her to tilt upwards. Now she knows why Avett’s backing off, at least.
He brushes a blunt finger over her forehead; the place Eltia had shot her. Lili winces because the skin around the impact site is still fresh and raw, and from the feel of things, it might be swelling up into a nasty bruise soon.
“We will discuss this later,” he says. Then he moves his hand away and starts heading towards the other end of the hallway. She’d dispelled Auren’s chilly curse a minute ago, but now it seems that it’s returned to settle at the pit of her stomach. He’s got a little bounce in his step.
She gulps—holy shit.
Avett appears next to her with a low whistle. She whips her head around so fast that her hair splashes into her face not a moment later. “What, are you going to punch me too?”
“Please. Auren’s punched you hard enough for the both of us.”
Her cheeks heat in embarrassment. For a moment, it looks like Avett has more to say than just a throwaway joke, and he opens his mouth in preparation for that. But then he shakes his head and steps away.
“Come on.” Despite his physical distance, he sounds a bit closer than before. “It’s just ahead."